Im still in denial that im done. That im starting my life :) Its gonna smack me in the face.
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I mean he wasn’t all cuddly because of a hang over. A little cranky, but it was nice. I spent more time with his siblings than him. A plus in a way. They like me :) I usually avoided them as much as I could, scared they wouldn’t like me. but hey, not so true.
It was nice, We are getting closer daily, and I love it. Things are slowly falling where I always wished they would be.. Even though he is a bipolar dickwad. He’s the bestest boyfriend ever.
Its crazy how we went through so much in these past 2 years, but we are still standing hand in hand. We never broke the promise to stand by each other, even though we both wanted to at time..we never left. <3
Ahh. I love you .
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I just wish I was in your arms right now. I keep thinking a few days back. In your arms. It was amazing. You. Me. The stars. The moon. It was perfection..
I miss you for no damn reason. I saw you yesterday. I heard your voice today. Why am I dying to see you. Like why am I dying to spend another night with you, acting like fools, planning out the future..
I just miss you for no reason. The second we say goodnight, the second we say good bye. I miss you, like if I haven’t seen you in ages.
I just love you I guess.. a loads.
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I don’t need a fucking paragraph abut how cool your blog is on every fucking picture. Dumb ass cunts. >:|
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;o why does he take so long to get freggin ready. :\ bhalll i hate him so much..but he’s just soo.. unff. Gosh I love him o.O gosh im nuts. -_- he takes too long.
Well I mean you dont want someone whos too quick if you know what im saying
okay, im a freak.
mhmm. NOTHING!
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You used me, but I loved you.. I gave up everything I had for you..I feel like dying.
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Guess im not “good enough” for you, guess I never will be.
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You knew how I starting having feelings for you.. But I never thought I would feel like this. You’ve became my world, my life. I know how things have been between us. Its been fighting, arguing, you getting annoyed, im getting upset, you fighting for time away, and i’m fighting for time next to you.
Lately, I’ve been trying to give you space..and I’ve been trying to focus on myself a little bit. But I fucking miss you.. More than ever. I honestly just want you to hold me. I just want to call you, and tell you I want to see you tonight. But I’m not sure you want to see me. I start thinking you are probably talking to someone else.. or you want to go see some other girl tonight.
I start believing that those night im laying there wishing you were with me, you are holding someone else. You are kissing someone else. Making love to someone else.. and that someone else is way better than I am. She makes you happier than I ever could.. i start believing that Im always going to feel this way, and Im never ever, going to get your heart like I wanted.
I start feeling fucking useless, and horrible. I start crying.. I remember if another girl makes you happy, I wont get in the way this time. You deserve to be happy. But It scares me. It fucking scares the shit out of me that I will never get to kiss you again. I won’t be the one laying next to you, sneaking in your room.. I wont be the one snuggling with you, playing with your hair.. It’ll be some one else.. She’ll take my place in an instant.
All over again, Ill be the secret. But I don’t want to be the secret. Because what if she’s the one, and im ruining things..
Okay, I fucking love you. I have nothing left. All my pride, has been long gone. This might sound crazy and clingy, and retarded. But I need you. And Im sick of being scared, im sick of waiting, im sick of hiding how I feel for you. I love you with all my heart..and I just want to be yours, I just want to have your heart..
Im not perfect. Not physically, and not mentally. But Im giving you all of me..every single fucking inch of me. I am promising, on everything I have..that I will always and forever love you. Ill take care of you every day. Ill be faithful. Ill be the best I can.
If you can’t love me back, idk what imma do. Its tearing me apart.. I’ve waited so long..I cried so much.. I worked so hard.. Others girls could get your attention in a heart beat, but for some damn reason, im here killing myself for you, and i don’t get that special attention regularly. Im tired of fighting for you.
Its getting a point that every girl you talk to , I want to bash their skull open. Okay. I love you. Im jealous. I don’t want you with anyone else. I want you with me. This might sound like some crazy person wrote it, but im crazy. And you know that. Im crazy about you..
And even if you don’t accept to ever be mine and only, I’ll still be here.. thinking about you. :\ So..
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